June 09, 2009

The Elephant in the Room!

Have you ever heard the phrase, “The elephant in the room?” Most of the time when this is said it is said in reference to a big issue that no one wants to speak of. So like an elephant in the room that no one wants s to acknowledge, for one reason or the other, the issue hangs.

I am bringing this up because if I was you I would be curious. If I was you I would want to know. If I was you I would want to ask. Of course I wouldn’t ask. I wouldn’t want to offend you or maybe I’m not suppose to notice or maybe it just wouldn’t be nice.

So like an elephant in the room I would try to ignore the issue.

Wondering what the heck I’m talking about yet?

Well I’m talking about the fact that I rode a bike for 103.5 miles, trained for seven months to do such a thing, spent endless hours exercising and well. . . I’m still rather fat.

Oh no! I didn’t just say the “F” word did I?

Yup! I said it you read correctly, I am still FAT!!

The elephant in the room, metaphorically speaking of course.

So what's up with that? Why after all this time and exercise have I not lost a single, solitary, tiny little pound?

I would like to blame it on a medical condition. I even went to the doctor for him to dig up something wrong with me. Once all the test came back do you know what I found out? I am 100% healthy, all of my blood work lies well within the normal range. Medically speaking there is no reason for me being overweight.

Dang it! No magic pill and I can look like Brittney Spears. Yikes! Do I want to look like Brittney Spears?

At the end of the day the issue of my weight comes back to me. It is how I eat and how much I eat.

Is it something I think about?

Ummm YAHH!!

When I see pictures do I cringe?

YUP I cringe right up and feel rotten and think there must be something wrong with me to be that fat.

Do I let it control my life?

That answer is a little more complicated. Obviously, food and I have some issues to work out. Obviously there are a few things that I need to deal with. Obviously!

However, at the end of the day I have a job where I wear a swimsuit. All kinds of people see me every day bee-bopping around in my suit. There is no question of my weight status while standing next to some of the cute tiny little girls I work with. Yet, I still have a job where I wear a suit and have no intention to change that fact anytime soon.

Also, I, ME, Yes fat Krissi rode her bike 103.5 miles in a single day!

Do I let weight control my life, to a degree yes but to another degree no. I have learned that I am not defined by my weight it is part of me but it is not all of me. If I spend my life waiting to figure out how to be skinny I will miss to many opportunities. If I spend every day concentrating on loosing weight and trying to look like Brittney (yah, umm yikes again) I will miss out on so much life.

In the end if I have learned that if let my shortcoming rule my life I will never figure out the greatness that is within.

Although, every now and then a magic pill to fix that shortcoming sounds like a great idea.

8 comments:

Heather Bowles said...

Man I wish I had a magic pill. I love you man. Food is so my problem as well, I just love it though.

Sharla said...

I love that you'll talk about this! On the other hand, I think "OMG! Really not 1 lb! That is so F*$'d up! I mean there's no justice in the world!"

So, along with this I want to add: I was talking about this to someone who is a personal trainer (he's a friend of Kyle's in the movie biz and he's worked with a bunch of A list celebs) So Not "MY" trainer but man if I were going to pick a trainer I would him, cuz he's hot and your trainer should be hot.. ok I digress.. He actually said one night that if he had any tips for people it's this "DO NOT EAT ANYTHING OTHER THAN WATER AFTER 6:30PM" How hard could this be right, well in 3 weeks I am Challenged to get home and have food on the table prior to 6:30. And I REALLY like my oReo cookie and milk snack while watching Conan. However, He did say that many of our hollywood celeb types follow this simple rule. So ... I challenge you, (as i've challenged me) to try it, and see what happens.

4kidsandcrazy said...

Krissi, I think it is so AWESOME that you don't let it hold you back. You've proven you can do anything you set your mind to do. That is the important thing.

I like that challenge! I think I'm going to try it too. BUT, I'll have to make a few exceptions...Book Club, not getting home until after 6:30 will still require dinner in my book, and other social occasions. But I agree sitting in front of the TV with some snack in my hand can be deadly.

Me, Myself and I said...

I like that you are a real person.

Angie said...

Do any of us really look like Britney? I mean, REALLY? And, do we want to? Not me, I want to look like Angelina. :) But it ain't gonna happen. We all have to be happy in our own skin, no matter what skin we are in at the moment. I've been too skinny and miserable. Healthy and happy is a much better way to be. I think you totally rock!

Willow said...

My family has recently gotten all skinny on me; my mom, my brother, my sister, dad... well that's a different kind of skinny. I am surrounded by a sea of smaller-than-me Brookses. It is painful because I used to be the svelt one amoung the group, however, Russ and I often joke that there is a reason the phrase is "fat and happy."

Think about it -- all the recent tragedies in the world, how many of those wackos were fat?... Um, none of them!!! Moreover, I am widly regarded as 'the nice one' (which is a complete sham) in the family. So, the way I see it, apparently my size is what keeps me from going postal on those nearest and dearest to me. =)

Regardless of how you look, how you think you look, or how you think others think you look, you are still one of the most beautiful women I know... and I like ya just like you are!

Louise said...

In any case it is a major thing to ride a bike that long. Not quite sure HOW long it actually is, because I deal in the metric system ;o) but I know its LONG!! Way to go - pun intended.

Anywhoooo.....exercise is great no matter how one choose to do it. But apparently, when exercising with the goal of loosing weight, I've heard that it really doesn't "give" anything to "just" bike. I should know. I have ridden my bike more or less every day for at least 20 years, and I am still fat ;o) (and by the way the fattest in a family of svelte persons like the poster above)

Emily said...

I had the same experience. Training for a marathon netted me zero pounds lost and I actually gained 1.5 inches overall. I don't get it and oh well. That wasn't the purpose of pushing myself to my limits but just a hoped for side effect.

You're still awesome!