July 12, 2009

I'm at that point that it is either 33..34..or 35..?

Tomorrow is my birthday. Woo Hoo! It is crazy to think how fast the years have passed. I find it amazing that in my heart I still feel like I'm 16. Not that I want to be 16 I just feel like I am sixteen.

This has been a crazy year with the economy being all nuts and causing more than a little money stress on our end of things. However, I have gained this whole new perspective on just how little our family can live on. Makes me want to be smarter with money and work on having less "wants" and a better definition of "need." I have also gained a perspective on how life continues to march on regardless of how finances are. The kids continue to grow, reach new milestones, develop into their own people, and have birthday's of their own.

I'm also having to deal with the fact that this year will be the first year all of my monsters are in school full time. Leaving me with an empty house several hours of the day. The memories of chasing four little ones around the house and trying to take care of them all day every day are rapidly dimming. Again I ask where does time go?

Now I am left in this position of figuring out what do with my life. Trying to figure out who I am without someone tugging on me through out the day. I'm not going to lie I am more than a little sad that there are no small feet running through this house , demanding hugs, and throwing of terrible two tantrums. No, now I get big kid tantrums that are in no way better than little kid tantrums.

However, as sad as I am, I am also excited getting married young and having children young means that I have not experienced to much adult life without kids. The only thing I really have done as an adult is have a family. Which I love and have grown in more ways than I can count. I know beyond a shadow of doubt it was the right road for me. Now I get the opportunity to be more than a mom. I haven't quite figured out what road to take I am excited to look at the roads in front of me and figure it out.

As I celebrate this year my 33rd or 34th or 35th birthday whatever it is I forget all the time. I meet the coming year with lessons learned, excitement for the years to come, and a little sadness for the years passed so quickly.



Emily said...

Happy Birthday Krissi!

(btw, I can't seem to find the post date on this new format. When was your birthday? You posted at 9:24 AM on what day?)

4kidsandcrazy said...

Happy Birthday! And good luck finding out what you want to be when you grow up. :) I'm still trying to figure that one out, but I still have babies, so I have some time.

Me, Myself and I said...

Since you can't remember, I will remind you that it's your 29TH birthday, silly! Happy [belated] 29th!

Sharla said...

Happy Birthday you gorgeous gal! You are still a strking Stunning Amazing person. I am glad I have had the priveledge of being "around" for some of the glory moments.

Seems funny to see people close to us who are now 16 and realize that if they are .... we can no longer be. Time relentless in it's march forward. Before we know it, we are still 16 in our hearts and 91 in our bodies. My only advice "ENJOY THE RIDE!"

Me, Myself and I said...

Oh, the weekend (and going away for the weekend) had me confused on my days. Let me remedy my last comment. Happy real birthday yesterday and happy belated birthday today.