August 23, 2009

Be Brave

Maybe you have been wondering why this little blog has been gimping along. Maybe you have thought, "She sure isn't posting as frequently as she use to." You have maybe even thought, from the few post that I have posted, "She is busy and the kids are home and that is why this little blog is gimping along."

That is if you have thought about it. You might not have. Being as you have a life and it doesn't really center on my ramblings and me.

Sometimes I forget I’m not the center of the universe. ☺

Well I have been busy and the kids and the husband have been home and that has slowed me down a bit.

However, the truth of the mater is I have been enjoying a season of self-pity. I have walked around in a half funk and have not really wanted to deal.

Deal with life or my feelings, basically, I haven’t wanted to deal with anything.

Turns out that when I stop dealing I shut down. The more I shut down the more my life spirals in a direction that I wasn’t necessarily wanting to go.

Leading to a vicious cycle of more not wanting to deal and more spiraling.

Are you feeling dizzy yet?

I made myself a promise when I started this blog that I would be honest. Every moment of my life wouldn’t be fantastic and awesome. Also, I wouldn’t spend every day posting how non-fantastic and non-awesome my life is.

I wanted this blog to be positive but real.

Turns out it takes a lot of work for me to be positive all the time.

Who knew?

Yah, pretty much everyone who knows me in real life.

Well I have learned the fastest way to get myself out of a funk is to be BRAVE. This past week I was brave. I did something that took all the guts and courage that this girl has. You know what happened?

It worked. It totally worked and life is turning around and I feel the not wanting to deal parts of me starting to wake up. Which leaves me with only one last thing to say.

I’m back, I’m totally back.

Aren’t you lucky?

Yah, yah, I know the universe doesn’t center around me.

1 comment:

Me, Myself and I said...

It's hard not to be super-uber positive when blogging. You want to put your best face forward. It's also hard, like you said, to not fall too hard the other way. Nobody likes a complainer. It's all about finding a happy medium. Such is the mantra of life, I suppose. And life moves on whether we are ready for it or not! We're all sliding things under the rug and putting on brave faces.