September 04, 2009

Holy CoW!

Today I went to my first school district meeting.
Part of my job is attending a monthly, training, type meeting.

As I sat there listening, taking notes, and doing my best not to respond to the text coming in on my phone, it dawned on me, "I'm a working mom."

It kind of took me by surprise to realize that my days of being a stay at home mom are over. I know that I have worked at the pool over the last couple years but I never really thought of myself as a working mom.

My schedule was very flexible, there was always people around to take my shift, H. hung out with me. It was a job but it didn't interfere with being a stay at home mom.

I was a little taken back to realize that I am officially a working mom. I can honestly say I never thought I would be. I really thought that I would stay at home and be "Suzy Homemaker," for the rest of my days. It has been a huge mental adjustment changing the plan.

Most days I am pretty confident that I am on the right path. That truth be told I am really not the "Suzy Homemaker" type. I am pretty sure staying at home day after day by myself would not be a good thing for me. I am discovering that I enjoy commotion and a quiet house just creeps me out.

Most days I am pretty confident and then I will be sitting in a three hour long meeting and it will dawn on me. Holy Cow I am a working mom. I'm doing the right thing, right?


Me, Myself and I said...

I had to opposite adjustment to staying home. I was like, "what am I supposed to do now? Clean something? HA, yeah right!"

Yes, you're doing the right thing. The "right thing" is whatever is necessary for the well being of your family and your own sanity! All your kids are in school now, and you're working parallel hours to them, and you get to get out of the too-quiet house, and you get a PAYCHECK! - you couldn't have a better situation!

Good luck on your new path! Stop second guessing yourself. You'll be great.

Krissi said...

Thanks Ash! Your Awesome you know that. :)